trust .

i don’t believe in a lot of things. god, i guess, is the most obvious one. but there are also small things; hope, love, truth, magical refilling tim tam packets. all the things i wish was true, but can’t bring myself to put my faith in. i believe they exist, to an extent, but not to the point that they say; the point where they surpass everything and holding on makes things turn out happily ever after.

although magical refilling tim tams would be like, super awesome (since i just finished a whole packet), like hope, love and truth, it doesn’t really bring strength and life and joy. it would most likely bring about confusion; why are there still tim tams in this packet? where are they coming from? how many have i eaten? and how fat am i going to get?

if you knew the truth about all that, i bet you wouldn’t want it anymore anyway.

say you were to ask me what i truly believed in, i don’t think i could come up with much, if anything at all.

i believe in communism, as an ideology but not as a methodology. i believe in medicine as assistance, but not as a cure. i believe in knowledge, but i think it should have its limits.

i believe in myself, but not in the way they want you to in those motivational courses.

what else is there to believe in?

    • jamesesz
    • March 14th, 2009

    Dear Lizi,

    This piece is splendid!! Terribly charming and filled with melancholy..Is this what you really feel? Such sorrow is beautiful..

    But what of doubt? Can you trust doubt? Doubt is something that is rather undoubtable..And doubt is the foundation for both faith and philosophy..

    ~ESZ, James

    • Garmon
    • March 14th, 2009

    ive been lied to so many times that the only thing i can really believe in is myself
    if you find you cant trust yourself then you’re subject to living a mindless life depending on others all the time

    • Nicole
    • March 14th, 2009

    Only you could make tim tams sound remotely profound. Only you.

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