ponder .

something (and i forget what) has caused me to wonder whether we prolong our lifespans due to the fear of death rather than to keep living.

honestly speaking, i cannot see the benefits life offers someone when they are past  the age of 60. in fact, i cannot see the benefits life offers someone once they pass the age of 40. not enough to want to keep living, anyway. when you’re 40 you have responsibilities.

bills.

mortgages.

children.

you never see a film or read a story about happily married 40 year olds. they always long for their teenage years when they still had fun.

move along a couple more years until we reach 60. what makes you happy now? watching your children and your grandchildren succeed? putting pressure on them to do so because you’re old and frail? sure, your family loves you, but how often is there a closeness, and how often are you happy? not bored, not proud. just happy?

i’ve been focusing on the issue of happiness a lot lately, it seems. i think it’s because i can’t see it anymore; not just within me, but around me. all around me i see determination, perseverance, anxiety, ambition. maybe even achievement. but achievement only brings a brief illusion of happiness.

how long do you want to live for when you can only achieve such an illusion once in a while?

maybe we only want to live because we’re too afraid of the alternative.

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    • Garmon
    • March 9th, 2009

    i wouldnt kill myself just because i dont want to live past 60
    but i dont think ill live such a long life anyway
    happiness is different to everyone
    shoes makes you happy
    music makes me happy
    and although not forever
    at least we’re still able to smile about it

    • Omar Modesto
    • March 9th, 2009

    My main reason right now is just that I want to see (and live in) a better world.

    We only get one of these life thingies, anyway.

    • jamesesz
    • March 11th, 2009

    If you can achieve your ‘dreams,’ those aren’t really dreams. Which is why I never really agree that people die after fighting the good fight.

    What us important is to be happy when we are fighting against time and death. But this is of course easier said than done.

    ~ESZ, James

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