i’ve realised that i’m deathly afraid of free fall. i made this realisation while i was watching the amazing race a few days ago, and the team members needed to do a bungee jump in order to proceed to the checkpoint. if you make it to the checkpoint last, you become eliminated. only one member of each team had to do the jump, and although they decided who it was rather quickly, it was still rather difficult to make the actual jump.
so i was watching them suiting up, standing on the platform, hyperventilating and trying to convince themselves to jump, and my palms are sweating. i shudder. my heart starts beating very fast.
and all from watching them on a twenty one inch screen halfway across the room.
i can’t imagine what it would be like to stand up there. i once imagined skydiving while i was in bed, and couldn’t get to sleep because my heart was beating so fast.
it’s weird, because i’m not really afraid of heights. i can look down from a tall building, or stand next to the glass in a glass elevator. hell, i’ve spent about two hundred hours of my life on a plane. but free fall? no fucking way.