i think explosm is down. either that or i can’t access it through my proxy server as well as the normal one. i’m devastated. i love explosm. i wish i had been given warning that it would happen. hold that thought though.
i’ve been watching a lot of one tree hill lately since i’ve been sick, and right now it’s all about people dying and moving on. they all want warning. in real life, we’d probably want warning too, if our loved ones were about to die. fair warning, that’s all.
i’m trying to think of all the things i’d do differently if i knew someone was going to die tomorrow. obviously it varies with who the person is, but there has to be something. because if you’d want to do it for the reason that they’re not going to be there anymore, it still means you want to do it, and there has to be a reason for that. i’m sure everyone has it.
okay so maybe if you’re going to plead undying love to your best friend’s girl/boyfriend you should probably wait until you don’t have another chance, but anything else… why does it make a difference whether it’s then or now?
so i’m going to start a game. it may be a little morbid, but think of it as a challenge. write something for every person that you would change an action for, if they were to die soon. maybe not tomorrow, and maybe not next week. but soon. soon enough to let you know that you’re running out of time. it can be anything, from a song to a haiku to a number plate for their car. whatever.
it can be cryptic. they never have to see it. they never have to know. i never have to know. but you will know.
i’ll post up my answers when i’m ready.